Where In The World Is Infertile Cow? July 16, 2008

I took time off from work.  Just needed it for my mental sanity.  The shrink agreed. 

MPS surprised me with airline tickets.  He rocks. MPS is working and I’m sight seeing.  Poor him, lucky me.

I absolutely love jet setting.  Booking a last minute flight gives me a rush.  Airports make me hate children.  One snot nosed child kept running up and down and knocking over my coke zero.  The parents did absolutely nothing.  I was not amused.  Another child howled and screeched during our long as hell flight.  I wanted to slap the shit out of gangs of teenagers.  I really don’t like other people’s kids.  Will I like mine?

I dunno.  Being here makes me not want to have children.  My life is so incredibly free.  We get to do whatever we want.  I have a flight out tomorrow to one of my favorite cities in the world.  I plan on having debaucherous fun.  And the best thing is, I totally can.   

Perhaps my life is just perfect now — just me and MPS having one big party.  Maybe I’m currently an infertile cow for a reason.  I’m so fucking double minded about having kids.  This “Summer Off” is giving me a lot of perspective.

Hint:  I’m somewhere over the Atlantic.  Not in the USA.  The ethnic food rocks.

What Do I Want? July 2, 2008

I wrote MPS a love letter this morning.  Here’s a line from that letter, “Sometimes the love is so overwhelming that I feel like a wave has crashed over me and I’m drowning happily in you.” He makes me so very happy.  My friends make me so very happy.  My life in this cosmopolitan city make me so very happy.

Being on this path to getting pregnant, I sometimes feel like I have limited vision.  I get so consumed with wanting to achieve a goal that I forget what it is that makes me happy.  Do I really want a baby, now at 28? 

I’m a very self absorbed girl.  My life is about me and MPS.  He works a ton; thus, I socialize a ton.  My life is good.  Dare I say it feels pretty fulfilled and complete.  A baby is going to change everything.  Will I feel trapped with a little one? 

I am in this wonderful state of bliss.  Is this a fake happiness created in my Prozac world?

FMLA & Infertility June 6, 2008

I’m running out of leave.  Correction, I’m plum out of leave.  For future treatments/doctor’s appointments I will have to take intermittent FMLA leave for infertility.  In other words I have 12 weeks or 480 hours to use for infertility treatments per year.  More info is at the DOL website.  Dr. S stated on my certification from a heath care provider form that I needed intermittent leave due to abnormal pregnancy.  Great buzz words the employers are looking for.

Can an employer be a dick about all of this?  Yes.  You’ll have to do your legal research in that case.  But fight that shit.  Don’t let the man stick it to ya.  Shake your fist at ‘em.